Days of Arazki - 7 weeks

come laugh with me everybody!
:D

being a mom

being a mom (and a dad - mewakili suami) is full of excitement. i have posted about this before (on my post about my husband's birthday).

but..
it's not always that excited :)

tinggal di budaya Timur terutama Indonesia dimana ada standard umum yang berlaku mengenai suatu keidealan, ditambah dengan sesama warga yang cenderung ingin tahu kehidupan warga lain (telah sukses dibuktikan dengan maraknya program infotainment di stasiun TV) dan kemudian langsung ataupun tidak memberikan penilaian terhadap perilaku warga lain tersebut, terkadang membuat saya risih.
in my case as a mother, saya risih dengan perilaku membanding-bandingkan bayi dan orangtua.

bukan hal baru di saat kita baru selesai melahirkan dan mengumumkan kelahiran sang buah hati dengan penuh rasa senang, orang-orang langsung bertanya: "normal atau caesar?"
jika kita jawab normal, pertanyaan belum selesai dan bisa berlanjut ke: "induksi atau ngga?"

:)
and the story goes..

setelah kita pulang dari RS, menjalani hari-hari penuh tantangan sebagai orangtua baru.. hal yang paling sering ditanyakan kembali adalah: "minum ASI atau formula?"
lalu bila dijawab ASI maka pertanyaan bisa berlanjut ke "Eksklusif atau campur?"

:)
it's not easy.
selalu ada pretensi bahwa you're not a perfect mother if you can't deliver your baby normally and give him/her breastmilk.

saya tidak mau memberi pendapat saya mengenai hal di atas.
satu yang saya yakini, setiap orangtua selalu mempunyai niat dan usaha yang baik untuk anak-anaknya.
adalah tidak adil jika kita membandingkan bayi kita dengan bayi yang lain, begitu pula diri kita sebagai orangtua dengan orangtua yang lain.

bagi saya, yang terpenting adalah menyayangi anak kita sepenuh hati.

sayang yang tulus, bukan untuk dianggap ibu sempurna di mata umum.
tapi ibu yang sempurna di mata anaknya.

itu lebih dari cukup :)

my dear Razki - 6 weeks

5 minggu

besok arazki tepat berusia 5 minggu.
dia tumbuh cepat sekali, bahkan saya yang setiap saat bersamanya menyadari kecepatan pertumbuhannya.
dari segi fisik, badan razki sudah tambah panjang dan berat. dari segi sifat, oalaah razki seperti bukan bayi lagi. razki ga betah pake bedong, kalau digendong pun ga mau posisi telentang pengennya berdiri nemplok dada.. tendangan kaki dan kibasan tangannya pun udah kaya thai boxer hehehe :)

dan hari ini adalah hari pertama Razki tidur dalam posisi tengkurep. ternyata kemarin2 ini dia rewel karena udah ga mau lagi tidur telentang. oalaaah... sekarang tidurnya nyenyak sekali, membuat saya kesepian karena keseringan ditinggal tidur.


5 weeks only dan razki udah tidur tengkurep.
i wonder what other surprises he'll give me in the future :)

happy birthday husband

i was supposed to post this on 3rd December 2009 when my husband turned 32. but at that time i didn't have any good idea (or time?) to write about. and again, we are not used to celebrate birthdays.

this afternoon, he is in his parent's home and razki is sleeping beside me. i am alone and suddenly i remember him. these last three weeks, we experience our days as new parent. sleepless nights, enormous amount of cloth diapers, and razki's crying, screaming, and laughing are a few things we never faced before until now. it's not easy i must say, but it's not difficult - because of him.

my husband is my number one supporter.
he cleans razki's poops, washes razki's clothes, diapers, and bottles, and helps me breastfeed Razki by giving calming words.
when i'm too tired, he tried to change razki's diaper by himself (walau salah-salah), he sings for Razki, cradle Razki in his hands all around the room just to make him sleep.
and he never needs me to say thank you.

dear husband,
it's almost a year for me to have you as a husband.
we never wear our wedding rings - we never like to wear rings anyway, so sagitarian :)
but that doesn't matter, because what ties us should not be a ring, but a heart.

if some people ask me who is the lucky guy?
i will say - it's not him who is lucky,
it's me.

i love u husband.
happy birthday.

Arazki

Baby R has arrived - Razki, Arazki Putera Tangguh.
7 December 2009.8.00 AM. 3,05 kg. 47 cm. Normal.
Healthy, handsome, and adorable. He took my heart instantly.

Welcome Baby R.. I love you.

sacrifice

i know, i'm so bad at writing these days.
kemarin-kemarin udah sempet kepikiran mau posting ultah ibu with a poem presented for her.. tapi tinggal niat.. because now i don't have time (really! seriously!) to even check my FB during office hours. berarti dulu-dulu sempet curi-curi? sering, hehehehe...
well, i sacrifice it now..

anyway, now every day i arrive at home i instantly feel exhausted and all i want to do is to make coffee (not pure black coffee off course), turn on the TV and lay down. waiting for husband to come and massage my feet :)

i am aware also that in the next few weeks, i will have more things to be sacrificed, especially my own time. the soon-to-be-baby is getting bigger, healthier and more active. it's 2.8 kg and i can't wait!

now my husband is still outside, finding a goat to be sacrificed for tomorrow's Idul Adha. it's glad to know it's not only me who experience sacfrification hehehe... *maaf kambing, aku bercanda. semoga kamu tidak merasakan sakit apa-apa ya*

HAPPY IDUL ADHA EVERYBODY!!a snap of my husband's new hairlook -- sake booo... :)

baby on board

the baby is going to be on board soon, yay! :)
ga cuma emaknya yang semangat menghitung minggu (tenang ta, masih minggu) tapi bapaknya juga semangat.. seperti yg terjadi akhir pekan kemarin.. oom jambul sibuk bersihin baby car seat :)

ini dia aksi ayahnya baby R!

tesis oh tesis

last week has been crazy for me.
i had to write five chapters of my thesis in order to qualify for a final presentation of my thesis.
at that time i had a BIG ZERO on my thesis writing. so i need to type it from the very beginning, the title page.
five nights in a row i slept at 12 in the morning. type and type and type.
i tried to sneak my thesis work during office hours but it was totally fail. my work load was as hectic as my thesis. i even have 4 meetings in a day! so u can forget about doing thesis in the office.

but it paid off.
my advisor said i can apply for a seminar this november (off course with a load of revisions waiting to be done) :)
alhamdulillah... to me, it's a good progress.
after 6 months of stagnation, at least i can see the big picture of my thesis hehehe...
wish me luck teman-teman... let's see in a few weeks what i will deliver first: my thesis presentation or my baby :)

special thanks:
** husband, for his endless patience especially facing my ignorance in taking care of him during last week (and perhaps a few more weeks? hehehe)
** my precious little baby in my tummy: i never saw a strong person like you, terima kasih banyak ya sayang, untuk menemani ibu setiap saat. i love you.

sebentar lagi...

hari ini 32 minggu..
sebentar lagi ya sayang.. kita bertemu..
ayah, ibu dan kamu..
:)